surf 'n' turf!

i never thought i'll say this but it seems like i am getting alot more viewership on this blog then i had anticipated. and to the latest viewer of the blog, terrance, hello you. like i have a choice you're reading this. do you know what it is? you are too kaypo for your own good. thats right. and i don't like that. because curiosity kills the puss.

that aside, things haven't been going too well @ uni. something i do not wish to rant and rave about. but lets just say that it's really NOT going well. sigh.

i have been seeing someone alot. someone of the past actually. unfortunately, its not jem. fortunately, its someone who is probably quite familiar to alot of you. maybe years ago, it wasn't the right time then but it seems like time has done us both heaps of good and we are getting alot more like-minded in terms of actions, speech, values and character. in hindsight, thats pretty scary hey. but boy, thanks for the dinner on wed. it was awesome.

he brought me to satisfy my steak craving, where i had surf'n'turf - steak with scallops and prawns in a brandy cream sauce. after which, we shared baci cake, tiramisu and a latte. now, that is awesomeness! *drool* i was a happy camper. and he looked so good that night. such a stark contrast to his scruffy jeans and tee. nevertheless, i'm liking it. =)

been thinking too much for my own good. i never knew i was able to attract a guy. but when i do, suddenly the prospect of dating someone scares me. which shouldn't be the case. if you guys know me well enough, i was born to be faithful and married at a tender age. hell, i wanted to get married when i was 18. call me naive, but it's been a childhood dream to just find that right person, not mucking around, get married and wake up to him for the right of my life. i simply couldn't ask for more. even then, it appears i demand too much.

life experiences have taught me to think twice, thrice. if possible, never contemplate it ever again. after all the bitterness has set in, i should just scrape that that idealism altogether.

now, love and marriage is overrated in my eyes.